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HEAL FIRST. LOVE SECOND.


It's a new year and I am excited about all the new beginnings that are in store for me. When I look back on my life, I have been truly blessed. Even though I have had negative things happen that I could dwell on, I choose not to. I try to see the good and find the best way to move forward.

Having been through two marriages already in my life, there has been plenty of moments of self-doubt and self-judgement. What is wrong with me? Do I not understand love? Why can I not love and make a marriage work?


Well, these are all good questions, and ones I have pondered a few time, but it wasn't until the past few months that I feel I have the answers... kind of... at least I know what I need to do, I just have to figure out how. So, let's go through them.


What is wrong with me?


In the past, I would have given you a list (not pretty enough, gray hair, chest too small, thighs too big, not thin enough, not smart enough, etc.) but I have determined the answer is "Nothing is wrong with me." I am exactly who I need to be. I am exactly who I was created to be. I may have things I want to improve, but I am good. I am loved by family and friends, I have a kind heart and a gentle soul, I am a giver and I am patient, I try to see the positive and good in people and this world. I view all of this as good things, there is nothing wrong with me, so let's move on to the next question. :)